malagim na umaga

umuwi ng mga 9.
pagod mula school ng kapatid,
nanuod ng play,
pero wala akong naintindihan.

nakatulog ako
siguro habang nagttext

pagkagising ko
pakshet

nakadikit na sa ulo ko
ang magaling na telepono

"hello there, radiation.
how's it like working with my brain cells?"

RADIATION: "t'was FUN."




haay.
masakit talaga ulo ko ngayon.

mahirap maging guro

kahit galit ka, hindi mo pwedeng sapakin estudyante mo.


baka ma feature ka sa XXX.
nako, tulad ng nangyare kay teacher luvy.

baklang teacher na dinisplace ang galit sa pananakit ng mga inosenteng bata.
**maling pagdidisiplina't pangangatwiran = KULUNGAN

this entry sucks: out of depression

i dont want to be one of the penguins
racing towards the sea
despite their ability to adapt
they are at the same skies as everyone else
none reach a higher altitude
as if no penguin wanted to reach dreams

i dont want to be one of the butterflies
fluttering endlessly against the gustly wind
despite their lovely wings
is a short life span
hidden in those fucking patterns
patterns of adoration
and they shall never reach neverland
stupid tinkerbell owns the place

i dont want to be one of those seemingly happy dolphins
for despite their charm
they suffer the lack of warmth
the lack of passion
to outdo life and to be challenged
with life's obstacles

i want to live like a content spider
spinning thread
a durable matter
for a happy home
a happy self



..i killed an ant.

envious of its patience and perseverance
storing food
for the drought.



..and i killed another one.